Mid Life Magic
The Coven
Mid Life is Magic.
It’s a thresholding space,
An initiation.
If we hold too tightly to what was, we miss the invitation to the banquet table generously awaiting us in our later years.
If we move too hastily, or think we have it figured out before we’ve fully transformed, we risk continuing the too-small patterns that have been ruling the day all along.
It could be crisis, as it’s commonly called in our current western context, but there’s SO much about this time that if tended, is MAGICAL.
Let’s go with Magic.
A look at what this offering is:
Who is invited to hang at this hearth?
This circle is for folks who are 40+.
There are many thresholding phases — and, this circle is specifically for those who are within the transition into elder/crone. This space is also for elders and crones who wish to offer presence, while also exploring the edges that may or may not have had the opportunity to be fully explored.
The practicals:
We will meet in circle for ten weeks on Monday’s (edited) from 3-5 pm pst beginning February 19th, 2024. The dates are posted in the next section. The first meeting will be an opening ceremony, and our last meeting will include a closing ceremony.
The flow of each meeting: A drop in to set the tone of the evening, a very brief check in, an exercise with time to practice, reflection time, brief check out, announcements, and a singular clap.
There are 12 seats.
The offering is $990, payment plans available.
Bonus: Each participant will receive a 1:1 with Meg at some point within the container or soon after the class completes. We’ll be able to listen more intimately for the threads that are most alive and need the most tailored attention during and after our collective time together.
Bonus: Each participant will receive access to materials and offerings of the Gold level of PRACTICE membership while in The Coven. This includes weekly chant gatherings, the PRACTICE journal and a seat for PRACTICE LIVE.
Gathering Dates (edited):
February 19th - Opening Circle
March 4th, 11th, and 18th — Unwinding
April 1st, 8th, and 18th — Summoning
April 29th, and May 6th, and 13th — Spells.
Note: I may be in need of a surgery in March or April, and these dates may slightly shift. Advance notice will be given.
Why talk about mid-life, Meg?
I thought that my midlife journey started when I was 37. That year included a lot of crisis. I left a difficult marriage that ended with his infidelity after struggling with infertility for nearly a decade, and I had three loss of consciousness trauma based seizures in one year — but, it turns out all of that was a precursor to the more true initiation into the space before true adulthood.
There is something so dynamic, stirring, unwinding about the transition into the 40’s.
And — it doesn’t need to be a “crisis.”
The invitations can seem subtle, and can be easily overlooked. That is why I’m here as a Spiritual companion holding “safe enough” space to drop in and be in the energy of recognition of the inner worlds and our soul speak.
My initiation really began in July of 2022, a couple months after my 40th birthday. The experience I had is not easy to put into language, and I won’t really attempt to do so here beyond naming that while awake I rather spontaneously could “see” through inner sight my larger, more eternal self. This moment of sight unwound me. It immediately became no longer possible for me to return to the egoic smallness of the stories I had been living because I saw myself, and cannot now unsee.
Within that moment was a key to my liberation and the pathway to becoming a more full and present adult. It’s been a journey of listening, surrendering, and stepping into each next right step.
The second wave of initiation was again birthed through my inner life, this time through a dream. In the dream I was eating something that I knew had some slightly rotten meat in it, yet I kept eating it. The sickly sweetness lingered even after I awoke.
Rather than interpreting or neglecting the dream, I allowed it to work me for a few days, and what I encountered underneath all of the stories was my deepest loneliness.
This loneliness is one that cannot be touched or “cured” by human relations alone. It’s the core wound that has unconsciously underpinned so many, if not all of my choices until the moment I could allow myself to feel and acknowledge it. This awakening unwound me yet again.
Allowing myself to be worked by my loneliness brought another layer of this initiation — Encountering my deepest longing — to be enveloped by love, to BE love.
This life has had so many obvious pains and trials, yet the truest ache that remains after all else is swept away is for Union with All-That-Is.
The way people talk about love has always turned me off. It feels transactional most of the time, particularly in “spiritual” contexts. For so long I wouldn't allow myself to admit my deepest longing, even to myself because it felt foolish and flimsy to lean on love.
But, it has revolutionized my life to let this longing live in my life:
I am more honest with myself and others.
I have access to my “no,” which gives me space for more full and juicy “Yeses.” This has led to a near full death of my people-pleaser self.
I am properly valuing my work and energy and inviting others to join me in that.
I’m no longer expending energy withholding myself from love, or withholding offering love to All-That-Is.
And I’ve been able to relax and savor the journey, something I didn’t know was possible after a lifetime of painful anxiety and being on guard.
There’s something I haven't yet acknowledged, which is that in April of 2022, my husband Charley and I moved to a 40 acre remote alpine desert mountain off-grid homestead that abuts the national forest. There are cougars, bears, coyotes, badgers, birds of prey, a crow we call “Igor,” and ticks. This mountain strips the too-small-stories away. The trees don’t care about your hair-do or the latest fashions. There are no visible neighbors. There’s an abiding silence here that can shake you or water you if you allow it.
It’s not like we should all move to a remote mountain sanctuary, 😆, but this land is an essential collaborator in my process of becoming a true adult. Earth, silence, More-Than-Human community are Essential to fully be transformed in initiations of the soul.
Within The Coven, we will drop into dreamscapes, longings, hidden narratives, and the inner world — as well as bring in outer wild so we can weave our personal initiation into the greater love story of All-That-Is.
Will you join us?
I am still in the energy of my initiation — and, it’s time to open the conversation with community so we can go through this burning mountain together.
For the last few months I’ve been hearing the stories of others who have also arrived in the thresholding space of mid-life, and have felt a tickle of excitement in imagining us circling up around an inner life hearth to gather and grow our potency beside each other.
It’s profound to hear the stories of experience of others.
It’s profound to hear our own voice speak truth, and to reach into the inner realms with trust enough to emerge more integrated and aware.
It’s important to have loving companionship in the transitions.
You’re not alone.
It’s a “Coven” because we’re in it together, and through being together something greater has an opportunity to emerge.
It’s a “Coven” because it is a modern word that touches on earth based spirituality that acknowledges a lineage of European Earth Magic. I am a Mixed Indigenous woman (Mi’kmaq, Afro-Caribbean Latina, and European) and have great passion for our great re-membering of land, More-Than-Human kinship and right-relationship restoration of our true human-ness.
It’s a “Coven” because we will be working our own inner life magic in tandem beside each other.