From The Field is a thresholding space, an initiation.
If we hold too tightly to what was, we miss the invitation to the banquet table generously awaiting us.
If we move too hastily, or think we have it figured out before we’ve fully transformed, we risk continuing the too-small patterns that have been ruling the day all along.
This is another way.
The way of the "exit" from automatically going along with the "Hero's Journey," and being in deep recognition of the journey you are here to create.
Part One
OBJECTIVES:
DETOX FROM “THE LOOP.”
GENERATIVELY DESTROY FALSE IDENTITY
REWIRE WHERE COMPELLED TO ENACT THE “HERO’S JOURNEY” PROGRAM
Part Two
OBJECTIVES:
BEGIN
SUMMONING FROM THE FIELD
GENERATING DECOY STRATEGIES
STEP THROUGH THE PORTAL INTO THE GENEROUS REALITY.
Part Three
OBJECTIVES:
SOVEREIGN CREATION FROM THE FIELD
UNION
ALL IS POSSIBLE
Testimonials
The Field Keeper Lab is for you who know:
Something unprecedented is trying to come through you, and you feel blocked in allowing it out.
You’re tired of translating gnosis into language that fits existing boxes.
Linear models can’t hold what you’re here to birth
You crave access to your creativity
Your imagination has been hijacked by noise, and you’re ready to reclaim it as sacred
You’re prepared to create WITH your life, and not be at the mercy of it.
You're ready to walk beside others in intimate WILDERNESS and be witnessed In The Field.
A re-wilded and alive relationship with your imagination. No longer edited. No longer tamed.
More access to truth and gnosis of your own direction. Once the channel is clear, subtle cues are louder than matrix logic.
A grounded, unshakeable sense of self. You'll know what's yours, and what's not yours.
A new story, a new rhythm, and maybe...a new revelation of who and how you REALLY are.
A community of resonant connections.
This is about Creative Breakthroughs -- where no vision is too big or too ordinary.
This is about clarity and direction without force -- where we stop hustling to "figure it out" and start SAVORING and sensing next moves from a deeper place. No more approval. More moving from gnosis.
This is about NO LONGER WATERING DOWN THE TRUTH. Speak. Dream. Create without shrinking to fit prescription. Your signal gets stronger, and people will FEEL it.
This is about cultivating a greater capacity for being with the unknown -- Where certainty isn't the prerequisite for action. Trust the emergence. Let things unfold without rushing to shape them. Encounter without naming. Move into spaces outside of language to bring safety for the unknown into Soma.
And MAJORLY, this is about cultivating capacity BEYOND crisis. Playful imagination is the antithesis of crisis. We are here to Create, not be at the mercy of the flow. Being in the dance WITH life is where it's at. Not control. Not in amnesia. Responsive. Creative. Playful. Easeful. Even if things get wild... or hard.
This isn't about living in resilience...which is naturally to be reserved for moments or seasons, but we're not created to live in survival. As we allow to too-small-stories to transmute and convert into new material within our lives, we have access to resilience -- and BEYOND resilience.
It is an organic technology that allows us to bring the BEYOND into form.
Most imagination within our current western context is recycled script, and has been domesticated by trauma.
To arrive at the more generous reality of imagination, we need to interrupt the scripts and generatively destroy the identities that are running on them. We are SO much more than complaining about co-workers, spouses or parents. We are SO much more than the trauma of our formative years or the abuses we have experienced.
We are not talking about "Love and Light" ignorance of the truth of our experiences. We're softening our gaze and opening the field of vision to see both the "burning mountain" of our pain -- AND, the generous field of wildflowers that is the ever expanding edge of creation.
Imagination is the portal to freedom.
Playful imagination, which can be hard for us whose play was robbed from us as children, is the medicine in the honey.
From The Field has a base as a self paced journey for you who are ready to be companioned in the EXIT from the matrix of the Hero's Journey. As Field Keepers, you'll have access to the Self Paced From The Field journey.
The Lab opens on September 11th.
Access to Field Walker Self Study opens September 1st.
The offering for the Field Keeper journey is $888. There is a monthly payment plan option of $148 per month for 6 months. (Field Keeper renewals for additional 6 month labs receive a 15% discount)
This journey includes 6x group calls that will happen monthly (field building, ritual, witnessing). We meet on the 2nd Thursday of the month. We will go together into the wild and affirm the findings from the field and tune into what will bring us into even more into ALIGNMENT.
6 months is enough to create conditions for transformation. Some of you may wish to hang longer.
Imagine: rituals and journeys created to meet the unique needs of the cohort. Witness for what has previously gone unheard. Access to my personal bank of stories of experience and practices. And more.
There is a growing library of "cut through the noise" transmissions in the From The Field private member area.
Expect pre-recorded audio sermons, journey work, sound alchemy, channelings, and imagination practices—designed to bypass the rational mind and feed the deeper signal. Non-linear. Not content. Field-fed. The library will open with at least 21 transmissions.
From The Field Companioning Resource Book. Cues, invitations, inquiry to assist you in going deeper.
The Field Forum: A sacred space for signal tracking, community witness, and Magic Gossip (the kind of gossip that builds, not tears down). This is where the transmissions continue—through us. Spontaneous transmissions exclusively for Field Keepers will happen. *Note: I will be involved in the forum as I'm able.
A “Catalyst Initiation.”
Upon signing up, you’ll RECEIVE a specially curated orientation series of purgation practices to begin clearing the channel before beginning the three-stage process.
This arc of work will go where your soul leads.
If your body needs tending, to be heard, to move — we’ll go there.
If your energy body needs tending, to recalibrate, to re-member it’s shape and agency — we’ll go there.
If retrieval of lost parts is the order of the day — we’ll put a call out for the wandering bits.
If the ancestors are speaking — with your consent, we’ll have our ears to hear.
My medicine pouch is deep and richly full, and my soul is tuned in and deeply listening for what’s needed with readiness to follow your lead.
My Story
and why "generative destruction" needs to be reclaimed.
My strong ability to imagine and to fantasize has saved me.
My formative years were so disrupted, so aggressive and scrappy ... being a touch delulu is ABSOLUTELY what kept me alive.
I was able to generate such strong images in my mind of being SO loved, so fed, so seen that my nervous system believed it -- and that generated a more generous reality than the one I was being handed on the daily.
Playful imagination, loving imagination, abundant imagination has been both shadow and gift for me. I've been LOST for hours in inner worlds, and have definitely craved my own reality over consensus reality -- and, it has been THE THING that allowed me to not just accept the programing of the ill and broken people around me.
As I grew and learned more about being in right relationship, emotional intelligence, ethics ... It became clear how I had fallen asleep to myself in an effort to survive the trauma I had endured. It required full commitment to come out of bypass and numbness into true intimacy. And somehow, my imagination remained intact. In fact, it grows stronger as I continue to deepen in utilizing my natural gifts in the direction of the collective. Medicine dreams, clairvoyance and claircognizance, and a steady stream of creativity continue to assist me in potent ways as I companion others in their own sovereign creativity and ability to companion others.
In addition, in 2022, my husband Charley and I to move full time to our 40 acre remote alpine desert mountain off-grid homestead that abuts the national forest.
There are cougars, bears, coyotes, badgers, birds of prey, a crow we call “Igor,” and ticks. This mountain strips the too-small-stories away. The trees don’t care about your hair-do or the latest fashions. There are no visible neighbors. There’s an abiding silence here that can shake you or water you if you allow it.
It’s not like we should all move to a remote mountain sanctuary, 😆, but this land is an essential collaborator in my process of becoming truly human. Earth, silence, More-Than-Human community are essential to fully be transformed in initiations of the soul.
Moving here cleared the channel.
It has generatively DESTROYED my false humility and not-quite-true identities.
There has been a DEEP unwind from any performance. The insidious pressure of the implied Hero's Journey as it's expressed in the current western context is NOT the journey of this mountain. This is the realm of the trickster, the magician, the side quester.
It's less dominion of the day and resources around, and more ENCOUNTER and mystery.
The Earth and Sky direct the flow of the day, and there's no ignoring it. We get up when it's light, and head towards bed when it's dark. It's raw and wild and dusty and sage covered.
One can't help but be shaped by this mountain.
One can't help but have clear vision of what's possible if more of us convert the potency of our imaginations that lies mostly dormant, or that is domesticated by trauma or survival into more sovereign, unencumbered, unadulterated expression.
Imagine ...imagine what's possible in your life if the false identities that were shaped by trauma and conditioning were to fall away...
What remains?
What's revealed?
And, what would you make from here.
an encounter from over 20 years ago.
I was sitting in my room, awake, sober, playing guitar. My dad's guitar to be precise. He had died a handful of years prior, and I was playing the guitar he had out to sea with him for nearly 20 years thinking about him.
The same year my dad died, a kid in my high school, Kevin, also died. We were NOT friends. In fact, he was kind of my bully. He would call me, "Mexican Jumping Bean," as an insult because he knew my family was Latino. I would correct him and say, "Colombian Coffee Bean, get it right!" Turns out, I'm also a bit Mexican. Also turns out, we're still making shitty "jokes" about brown people.
I kinda always thought that Kevin maybe had a crush on me, and just couldn't deal with it. I went from growing up in incredibly unstable conditions (think stints in a van in the graveyard) to going to high school in one of the most affluent towns in Maine. It was a crooked line that brought me there, and I never even kind of fit in. If Kevin DID in fact like me and was pulling my pigtails in a racist way, I'm sure the context we were in didn't help. I was thought of in an interesting light, being poor and being the quirky, "off white" kid that I was.
Anyway, he died (and nearly killed his best friend) by wrapping a tree with his car.
And, when I heard about his death from one of my friends at like 6:30 am, I collapsed and wailed. It was SO shocking and effected me so deeply. Surprising, considering how crappy he was to me.
So I'm in my room, playing guitar -- and he's suddenly in my room. A full scale apparition. He's asking me if I can see him, if I can hear him. And, wow! I can. He asks me to go with him, he's not sure how long he has before he slips back into where he came from. I'm scared, but I get up and take his hand. We flash through a hallway, and go into essentially a movie theater. A short is replaying over and over again of the moment of his death. He sits a row behind the front row, and I sit where I'm standing just shocked.
He says, "I've been trying to get you to see me for a while now. I'm not sure why I can see YOU of all people. Maybe because you would eventually see me. How long have I been in here?"
"You died almost 5 years ago."
"Wow. It's been an ETERNITY in here."
"Is this where you've been this whole time...watching this same moment over and over again?"
"Yeah..."
Then my dad walks in! He sits at a diagonal from me and I guess telepathically says, "Don't worry kid. I felt you on this side, and I'm just here to make sure you get out alright."
Okay! wow. I want to spend time talking to me dad, but I've been brought here to help Kevin.
Kevin says, "I don't know how I started seeing you...how I was able to reach you. I want to get out of here. What do I do?"
I turn to him, heart facing more of his direction and get the words, "Imagine Something New" out -- and then I was instantly back in my room.
This moment has shaped a lot of my life.
This knowing that poured through me that bypassed intellect and was transmitted from soul of Imagining Something New was hopefully helpful to Kevin, and was exactly also helpful to me. I was a scrappy, abused, nervous yet DEEPLY caring and creative kid. My trauma was in my way from expressing myself fully -- and, gifts are ALWAYS in our shadows.
My gift and responsibility is to imagine something new. To interrupt the loops and move towards a more generous reality through playful imagination. It's how I've created so much in my life: thousands of paintings, books, sculptures, albums...a thriving business that assists folks in tuning into who and how they REALLY are and dreaming more wildly and in wild belonging.
It’s profound to hear the stories of experience of others.
It’s profound to hear our own voice speak truth, and to reach into the inner realms with trust enough to emerge more integrated and aware.
It’s important to have witness in the transitions.
The group meetings are catalyzers for your own journey, growth, transformation.
Will you Join us in the lab?
I sure hope you do.