And it's not personal.
It is an organic technology that allows us to bring the BEYOND into form.
Most imagination within our current western context is recycled script, and has been domesticated by trauma.
To arrive at the more generous reality of imagination, we need to interrupt the scripts and generatively destroy the identities that are running on them. We are SO much more than complaining about co-workers, spouses or parents. We are SO much more than the trauma of our formative years or the abuses we have experienced.
We are not talking about "Love and Light" ignorance of the truth of our experiences. We're softening our gaze and opening the field of vision to see both the "burning mountain" of our pain -- AND, the generous field of wildflowers that is the ever expanding edge of creation.
Playful imagination, which can be hard for us whose play was robbed from us as children. This experience of From The Field is the restoration of your imaginative play. The medicine in the honey.
We uncover what's in our way, bolster the signal, and then we CREATE!
Part One
OBJECTIVES:
DETOX FROM “THE LOOP.”
See repeating patterns more clearly, and regain conscious choice in generatively interrupting yourself to re-route and come unstuck.
GENERATIVELY DESTROY FALSE IDENTITY
Who are you without the Too-Small-Stories? What remains? What's revealed?
REWIRE WHERE COMPELLED TO ENACT THE TRADITIONAL “HERO’S JOURNEY” PROGRAM
We're not here to villainize the traditional "Hero's Journey," where the hero leaves home, faces trials, wins a prize and triumphantly returns home transformed. This arc is an archetypal map that has been powerful throughout all time. Nearly all stories follow it. What From The Field offers is an open space for the Anomalous Hero's Journey to have equal legitimacy. Some of us our "Sidequesters" whose fulfillment comes more from Novelty and Encounter than from Meaning and Happiness. This path is glitchy and asks us to dwell in Mystery, and isn't always easy, but is TRUE and REAL and the Anomalous Hero has an important role in the constellation of Humanities current context.
Part Two
OBJECTIVES:
BEGIN SUMMONING FROM THE FIELD
The Field is an often unseen ever-expanding playground of ideas, emotions, energy where all possibility and unbridled imagination live. In the second movement of From The Field, we begin to recognize our participation in the Flow, vs. just "going with the flow."
GENERATING DECOY STRATEGIES
Sometimes to know what we want, we need to know what we DON'T want. We'll practice feeling into the "forbidden" and into strategies that assist us in discerning what is truly for us.
STEP THROUGH THE PORTAL INTO THE GENEROUS REALITY.
What is the Generous Reality? It's when you find more than you expected. It's wonderment, surprise, and holy awe. It's PRESENCE. It's ENCOUNTER, where you meet without story or pre-conceived notions. It's CREATION, and the energy that assembles around imagination.
Can you hear the call to the edge where dreams are made?
Part Three
OBJECTIVES:
SOVEREIGN CREATION FROM THE FIELD
This is when it gets PLAYFUL! We dance in participating in the flow, and creating WITH life, and All-That-Is. The uninterrupted signal is free to move into expression, and the speed, scope and scale of that is more in your hands now.
UNION
When you're in the dance WITH life, and not at the mercy of it, there is an intimacy, an eros that opens into our experience that could not be seen or known before....
ALL IS POSSIBLE
And through that intimacy, all is possible. We are no longer limited to being a "kind of person who....," because the range of motion has been blown open.
Imagine....
What would you create if you KNEW that all is possible?
From The Field is a thresholding space, an initiation.
If we hold too tightly to what was, or who we were, we miss the invitation to the banquet table generously awaiting us.
Or, if we move too hastily, or think we have it figured out before we’ve fully transformed, we risk continuing the too-small patterns that have been ruling the day all along.
This is another way.
The way of the "exit" from automatically going along with the traditional "Hero's Journey," and being in deep recognition of the journey you are here to create. It's an anomalous path, one that requires deep listening and discernment. No one has ever exactly gone before you on this path, and therefore No One outside of you can tell you where to go, or even when you "get there." But when your channel is clear enough for the signal to come through unadulterated, you will KNOW from your deepest well of knowing.
You can feel an entirely new paradigm pushing to be born through you - but the weight of old conditioning, fear, or the "shoulds" has kept it trapped inside.
You’re done shrinking mystical TRUTHS and soul-deep wisdom into digestible soundbites that fit other people's boxes.
You've outgrown linear roadmaps and cookie-cutter frameworks. What you're here to create is multidimensional, alive, and cannot be contained.
You ACHE to move beyond dry productivity and reconnect with the WILD source of your creativity as fuel for your work and leadership.
You're no longer willing to let distractions, comparison, CRISIS or cultural noise colonize your imagination, and you're ready to reclaim it as sacred ground.
You’re ready to step out of survival mode and into sovereign creation -- co-creating with your life force rather than being at the mercy of it.
You're a creator, a DEEPLY creative person who knows that what the world needs right now are novel solutions to crisis, and you're willing to step onto the less trodden path to uncover more of what you're here to CREATE that can only come through your unique channel. This offering is for you who know that creative problem solving is key to moving towards a more generous reality that serves ALL of us, and not just some.
A re-wilded and alive relationship with your imagination. No longer edited. No longer tamed.
More access to truth and gnosis of your own direction. Once the channel is clear, subtle cues are louder than matrix logic.
A grounded, unshakeable sense of self. You'll know what's yours, and what's not yours.
A new story, a new rhythm, and maybe...a new revelation of who and how you REALLY are.
From The Field is about Creative Breakthroughs -- where no vision is too big or too ordinary.
This is about clarity and direction without force -- where we stop hustling to "figure it out" and start SAVORING and sensing next moves from a deeper place. No more approval. More moving from gnosis.
This is about NO LONGER WATERING DOWN THE TRUTH. Speak. Dream. Create without shrinking to fit prescription. Your signal gets stronger, and people will FEEL it.
This is about cultivating a greater capacity for being with the unknown -- Where certainty isn't the prerequisite for action. Trust the emergence. Let things unfold without rushing to shape them. Encounter without naming. Move into spaces outside of language to bring safety for the unknown into Soma.
And MAJORLY, this is about cultivating capacity BEYOND crisis. Playful imagination is the antithesis of crisis. We are here to Create, not be at the mercy of the flow. Being in the dance WITH life is where it's at. Not control. Not in amnesia. Responsive. Creative. Playful. Easeful. Even if things get wild... or hard.
This isn't about living in resilience...which is naturally to be reserved for moments or seasons, but we're not created to live in survival. As we allow to too-small-stories to transmute and convert into new material within our lives, we have access to resilience -- and BEYOND resilience.
This world has not been a place for the sensitive, the imaginative, the brilliant, or we who are deeply awake to the fractures of the world. We often have tried to fit into this context - and it keeps NOT WORKING.
There are a few looping narratives that I am aware of:
The Traditional Heroic Fixation. The current context is built on this narrative and is fueled by fighting, striving, sacrificing to prove our worth or legitimacy.
Linear Problem-Solving. i.e. Find the cause of the problem, fix the cause. When things don't resolve in this formula, we can feel broken or as if we're "failing" at healing, our creativity or life.
Scarcity. As in, anything new or good has to come by grinding harder, self betrayal, or fighting the system.
Rebellion as primary strategy. We are often situated in opposition and build IDENTITY through opposition. This ultimately keeps us feeding the system we seek to unbind.
The solution: Keep entering into spaces that empower to you to recognize the clearest signals you are capable of receiving, that support you in Imagining Something New, and to TRUST those visions and callings SO MUCH that you ACT in the direction of those callings.
From The Field works because it's not a band-aid. It's a series of transmissions that produce a glitch that becomes undeniable, and once nurtured, generates reality from a new paradigm -- one where the old-ass, tired scrips no longer make sense.
From The Field has a base as a self paced journey for you who are ready to be companioned in the EXIT from the matrix of the Hero's Journey.
The offering is $444 for the self paced path.
There is a growing library of "cut through the noise" transmissions in a private member area.
Expect pre-recorded audio sermons, journey work, sound alchemy, channelings, and imagination practices—designed to bypass the rational mind and feed the deeper signal. Non-linear. Not content. Field-fed.
From The Field Companioning Resource Book. Cues, invitations, companion to the transmissions, inquiry to assist you in going deeper.
The Field Forum: A sacred space for signal tracking, community witness, and Magic Gossip (the kind of gossip that builds, not tears down). This is where the transmissions continue—through us. *note: I will be involved in the forum as I'm able.
A “Catalyst Initiation.”
Upon signing up, you’ll RECEIVE a specially curated orientation series of purgation practices to begin clearing the channel before beginning the three-stage process.
Everything in the "Field Walker" self paced journey, PLUS
6 monthly group sessions (field building, ritual, witnessing) on the 2nd Thursday of the month from 10-12 pm pst.
Enrollment for the Field Keeper lab is evergreen and renewable for a 15% discount each time you re-join.
Everything in the "Field Keeper" journey, PLUS
12 x 1:1 sessions with me (Custom project incubation and field-building mentorship)
Optional in person retreat Spring of 2026 to get FULLY re-wired to the generous reality. Details TBD.
Deeper commitment to the re-wiring through live companionship allows us to go together into the wild and affirm the findings from the field and tune into what will bring you in even more into ALIGNMENT.
Imagine: rituals and journeys created to meet your unique needs. Witness for what has previously gone unheard. Access to my personal bank of stories of experience and practices. And more.
There are only 3 seats open for Field Oracle at a time. Application necessary required for Field Oracle path.
The Heart of the invitation
My Story
and why "generative destruction" needs to be reclaimed.
My strong ability to imagine and to fantasize has saved me.
My formative years were so disrupted, so aggressive and scrappy ... being a touch delulu is ABSOLUTELY what kept me alive.
I was able to generate such strong images in my mind of being SO loved, so fed, so seen that my nervous system believed it -- and that generated a more generous reality than the one I was being handed on the daily.
Playful imagination, loving imagination, abundant imagination has been both shadow and gift for me. I've been LOST for hours in inner worlds, and have definitely craved my own reality over consensus reality -- and, it has been THE THING that allowed me to not just accept the programing of the ill and broken people around me.
As I grew and learned more about being in right relationship, emotional intelligence, ethics ... It became clear how I had fallen asleep to myself in an effort to survive the trauma I had endured. It required full commitment to come out of bypass and numbness into true intimacy. And somehow, my imagination remained intact. In fact, it grows stronger as I continue to deepen in utilizing my natural gifts in the direction of the collective. Medicine dreams, clairvoyance and claircognizance, and a steady stream of creativity continue to assist me in potent ways as I companion others in their own sovereign creativity and ability to companion others.
In addition, in 2022, my husband Charley and I to move full time to our 40 acre remote alpine desert mountain off-grid homestead that abuts the national forest.
There are cougars, bears, coyotes, badgers, birds of prey, a crow we call “Igor,” and ticks. This mountain strips the too-small-stories away. The trees don’t care about your hair-do or the latest fashions. There are no visible neighbors. There’s an abiding silence here that can shake you or water you if you allow it.
It’s not like we should all move to a remote mountain sanctuary, 😆, but this land is an essential collaborator in my process of becoming truly human. Earth, silence, More-Than-Human community are essential to fully be transformed in initiations of the soul.
Moving here cleared the channel.
It has generatively DESTROYED my false humility and not-quite-true identities.
There has been a DEEP unwind from any performance. The insidious pressure of the implied Hero's Journey as it's expressed in the current western context is NOT the journey of this mountain. This is the realm of the trickster, the magician, the side quester.
It's less dominion of the day and resources around, and more ENCOUNTER and mystery.
The Earth and Sky direct the flow of the day, and there's no ignoring it. We get up when it's light, and head towards bed when it's dark. It's raw and wild and dusty and sage covered.
One can't help but be shaped by this mountain.
One can't help but have clear vision of what's possible if more of us convert the potency of our imaginations that lies mostly dormant, or that is domesticated by trauma or survival into more sovereign, unencumbered, unadulterated expression.
Imagine ...imagine what's possible in your life if the false identities that were shaped by trauma and conditioning were to fall away...
What remains?
What's revealed?
And, what would you make from here.
an encounter from over 20 years ago.
I was sitting in my room, awake, sober, playing guitar. My dad's guitar to be precise. He had died a handful of years prior, and I was playing the guitar he had out to sea with him for nearly 20 years thinking about him.
The same year my dad died, a kid in my high school, Kevin, also died. We were NOT friends. In fact, he was kind of my bully. He would call me, "Mexican Jumping Bean," as an insult because he knew my family was Latino. I would correct him and say, "Colombian Coffee Bean, get it right!" Turns out, I'm also a bit Mexican. Also turns out, we're still making shitty "jokes" about brown people.
I kinda always thought that Kevin maybe had a crush on me, and just couldn't deal with it. I went from growing up in incredibly unstable conditions (think stints in a van in the graveyard) to going to high school in one of the most affluent towns in Maine. It was a crooked line that brought me there, and I never even kind of fit in. If Kevin DID in fact like me and was pulling my pigtails in a racist way, I'm sure the context we were in didn't help. I was thought of in an interesting light, being poor and being the quirky, "off white" kid that I was.
Anyway, he died (and nearly killed his best friend) by wrapping a tree with his car.
And, when I heard about his death from one of my friends at like 6:30 am, I collapsed and wailed. It was SO shocking and effected me so deeply. Surprising, considering how crappy he was to me.
So I'm in my room, playing guitar -- and he's suddenly in my room. A full scale apparition. He's asking me if I can see him, if I can hear him. And, wow! I can. He asks me to go with him, he's not sure how long he has before he slips back into where he came from. I'm scared, but I get up and take his hand. We flash through a hallway, and go into essentially a movie theater. A short is replaying over and over again of the moment of his death. He sits a row behind the front row, and I sit where I'm standing just shocked.
He says, "I've been trying to get you to see me for a while now. I'm not sure why I can see YOU of all people. Maybe because you would eventually see me. How long have I been in here?"
"You died almost 5 years ago."
"Wow. It's been an ETERNITY in here."
"Is this where you've been this whole time...watching this same moment over and over again?"
"Yeah..."
Then my dad walks in! He sits at a diagonal from me and I guess telepathically says, "Don't worry kid. I felt you on this side, and I'm just here to make sure you get out alright."
Okay! wow. I want to spend time talking to me dad, but I've been brought here to help Kevin.
Kevin says, "I don't know how I started seeing you...how I was able to reach you. I want to get out of here. What do I do?"
I turn to him, heart facing more of his direction and get the words, "Imagine Something New" out -- and then I was instantly back in my room.
This moment has shaped a lot of my life.
This knowing that poured through me that bypassed intellect and was transmitted from soul of Imagining Something New was hopefully helpful to Kevin, and was exactly also helpful to me. I was a scrappy, abused, nervous yet DEEPLY caring and creative kid. My trauma was in my way from expressing myself fully -- and, gifts are ALWAYS in our shadows.
My gift and responsibility is to imagine something new. To interrupt the loops and move towards a more generous reality through playful imagination. It's how I've created so much in my life: thousands of paintings, books, sculptures, albums...a thriving business that assists folks in tuning into who and how they REALLY are and dreaming more wildly and in wild belonging.
Are you ready to imagine something new?
If yes, I sure hope you join us.